Any Better?

A few months back I was crawling and struggling because of a heartache. I can still vividly remember how painful the ordeal was. Fast forward to today, I asked myself, if God gives me a chance to go through it again, will I be better in handling it? I've lost two good friends through my own fault, and I never saw the intensity of the hurt until I was almost drowning in it. I have repeatedly asked myself could i have handled it any better?