I see myself going through cycles over and over again. Being in situations repeatedly and surprisingly doing the same things again. Stating the obvious, life is being very patient with me. I once said that opportunities will keep on coming back until I grab them, well, its the same with lessons: they will keep on repeating itself until I learn them. I'm amazed at how I find myself in the same situation, thinking that things will change because its a different time only to find out that I missed the point again.
Talking about it concretely, I have this attitude of feeling that somebody I like would also like me back. I try as much to keep it to myself but I still end up spilling it albeit, its to my closest friends. Eventually, I would find out that there is really nothing for me and so I end up with my frustrations and heartbroken imagination. Somehow I still can convince myself to think and hope otherwise. I'm not being pessimistic, I guess there is another way of hoping and keeping the faith without being assuming. And so for the nth time, I find myself slightly bruised for my eye-candy happens to be eye-ing a different lady.
It does take a lot of courage and practice to learn something. For somebody who graduated with honors and who is not really slow, learning the real lessons of life seems to be a difficult subject for me.
Promise, I'll be better the next time.
