I wonder when this will all end.
They say that you just have to keep your eyes on the prize and all else will be bearable. I have been doing that longer than I expect myself to and yet the blows just keep on coming and coming. I feel like I'm being pushed to the extent where in I am left with no hope just letting myself be carried away by the currents of life. I have, for the longest time, fought to live a life of conscious decisions, of wanting to experience every waking moment, feel the pains of every trouble and hardship, and be truly happy when life allows me to do so. To think that I'm about to celebrate my 30th birthday this year, I feel helpless somehow.
